Fear

I had a midwife appointment last week when I was 31 weeks pregnant. I found out that my baby is measuring 4 weeks small, is posterior (face up) and my hemoglobin levels keep going up. These are not good things, but they can be taken care of. Needless to say, fear has been on my mind. Besides those issues I'm facing, since the beginning of the pregnancy I've been afraid of:


-the pain of giving birth.
-things that can go wrong while birthing.
-birthing at home.
-the severe hormonal changes I often experience after birthing.

I've enrolled myself in a home study course called hypnobabies which has helped me to learn to relax deeply. Daily I'm practicing relaxing and I'm visualizing my ideal version of the birth of my baby. I've never prepared for birthing before. I've always just done it.

I'm glad I'm preparing this time. I've met some amazing people, and learned many wonderful things that I wouldn't have otherwise. I have learned that fear does not exist in the present. It is always about what is going to happen, or what has already happened to myself or someone else, or what someone tells you has happened or is going to happen. As long as one truly remains in the present, there is no fear.
In Doctrine and Covenants 38:30, the Lord tells us, "If ye are prepared, ye shall not fear." I"m preparing for this birth and in doing so I'm replacing my feelings of fear, to feelings of faith and trust in God.